Well, I discovered that I was putting in danger my family in a indirect way.
I am a terrible person.
They aren’t going to kick off of the family, but they don’t trust in me anymore.
That is fair.
So, I am going to search for a job in August.
No more time for fandoms, I guess…
I am scared in a strong way. I wait to find my courage for, in the very first time in my life, doing something revelevant without destroying all the persons who cares for me.
I am going to do a best post later.
Yes, all the time I was doing the things with the mind of the teen.
I am adult person and my older familiars can die in any moment. I need to FEEL it, no more “nice words” of understanding.
I don’t want to regret all the time that I use in Tumblr.
I met interesting users and that was great. I understand more about importante themes that persons don’t learn in school.
But I used my family’s trust, being an egoist person thinking that my problems were the only ones,
I am not sure if I lack of health or all was in my mind.
Thank you for read my blog.
That mean a lot, but that is shame that I am not a good person in REAL LIFE.
I know, life go on and I am glad that I can have help, still with the products of my cruel (in)actions,
See you when I can have a time between the future job that I can find and the class time of my new university program, if I can save enough money for have one.
I know, all this looks so dramatic. I guess this is the first time when I fee as an adult meeting the hard REAL LIFE.
The true one.
Not the one in the words of certain famiiars.
I need overcome all the fears, Because they are reality now.
I am an internal emotional mess with a poker face.